Really struggled this morning…just had no energy.  Hard to say if it is from the change in diet or just my body.  I got on the scale and it hadn’t moved even an ounce in 2 days.  Because I was so tired I got really discouraged.  I almost threw the towel in…but I didn’t!  I had to self talk…WTH, it had only been a few days.  I made myself get up & do some house work.  The mood passed & I have to say I have a successful 3rd day under my belt.

So I know I have to be careful of self sabotage, it can make or break me.  I need to be realistic in my expectations.  I will not always drop weight on the scale.  I have to see my success’s in how well I have treated my body by eating well for 3 days in a row. 

It’s silly but by writing this blog, it makes me feel accountable.  Hey if it works…right?

So I figured it out!!!

I am up 14.6 pounds since the Biggest Loser program ended over a year ago.  I was at 162.6 pounds when the program ended and I am now at 177.8 this morning.  So I now have an idea of what I have to do and you bet I will be doing it.  No more self talk saying, “I can’t and it’s too hard”, I am doing this.  I CAN DO IT!  I WILL DO IT!!

I am on the 2nd day of counting calories, it’s going well.  Yesterday I had just under 1400 calories.  I also shopped today for all of my snacks & food.  I checked the calorie count on what came into the house.  I had a 2 mile walk this morning. I have my smoothie maker ready for the times I need a treat.  I have my small dinner plates out to help with my portion control.  My salads are made for the week.

I’d say I am ready and armed with the most important thing…my mind set!

Finally Taking Notice

Well I have been out of the Biggest Loser Program for over a year now.  I have officially gained some weight.  The numbers will follow when I calculate from my last Biggest Loser weigh in.  I think I got complacent…For the 1st 7 or 8 months when I noticed my weight went up a bit, I was able to adjust my eating for a few days & magically it would go back in place.  The Christmas happened! Then the Cruise happened!

I thought I could just do what I wanted & I would make the adjustment after the holiday but that never happened, same after the cruise.  I think part of it was my thyroid was off & the combination was just not good.  I quit exercising..I just don’t like it.

I have to figure that part out for me.  I love the competition more than anything so maybe that’s where the truth lies.  So the the combination of all of these changes brings me to this…I HAVE GOT TO GET A GRIP ON MY WEIGHT & STOP WITH THE EXCUSES!!  End of conversation, gotta get tough with myself.  Yesterday was the start.

Yesterday was the beginning of a new day, I felt like I could do this again & I have to.  Phil & I went away for the weekend & I ate fried food almost every meal…UGH! What was I thinking?  I felt so run down that I went to bed at 9:00 2 nights in a row.  I never do that!!

Well I guess it got me to take notice, so the journey as interrupted as it was had begun again.  I will conquer this, I am so much stronger than I have ever been.  I feel positive & I can say…I GOT THIS!!!

Heading out for a walk/run.  Will blog later & get into the nitty gritty of why I do what I do to myself.

Update

So the Biggest Loser has been officially over for almost 2 weeks now.  I have lightened up on the strict eating I was doing but not dropping any weight but the great news is not gaining it either!!!  I am not concerned yet…I think I needed to slack off a little bit and not be so strict with myself.  So I have given myself permission to indulge just slightly in things I wouldn’t eat before and the funny part is that I still want the healthy stuff instead of the garbage. 

I made some trail mix…OMG was it good!  So I indulged and even though it was healthy I needed to step away from it, so I did.  So now I know that I can’t make something so good and keep it around until I get this weight off, then I can make it again. 

I need to give another push so I can hit my goal weight which is between 140-150 pounds.  Not sure which, I guess I will know when I get there.  

Also I am being physically active but not as much as when I did the Biggest Losers.  That was almost too tough on me some days, so I knew I would adjust that.  This week the family and I climbed Rattlesnake MT., what a great time. Tonight I tried to run the 5K with the 2 Bills from the group without success.  My asthma kicked in immediately and I chose not to push.  I guess I have to call the Dr. and get better instructions for using the medicines that I hate to use.   I am hoping to do the 5K run with the family this weekend.  We will see. 

I am pretty content with my new life and what it has to offer.  I feel very blessed to be able to feel better these days! 

It’s over!

The Biggest Loser program is officially over, but we will continue to be together as a group of dedicated people that want to be healthy great friends!

So I lost 63.6 pounds.  That was not quite enough to become the Biggest Loser.  I missed that title by exactly 1 pounds or only 3500 calories…LOL.  Oh no, don’t feel sorry for me.  I am totally happy with my results and I couldn’t be happier that Liz won that title.  She is amazing and has truly transformed herself.  I loved seeing that and being a part of it as well. Darlene did an amazing job with her hair and I help pick out some new clothes.  So beautiful!

So back to me.  I went from 225.8 pounds down to 162.2 pounds.  I have nothing to complain about there.  Who would have thought that that girl living everyday with chronic pain & fatigue could do hard things.  Well now I believe it.  I can climb Mountains and I know this because last week I climbed Poke O Moonshine and can’t wait to do it again!

Tuesday after weight in was business as usual, I did not even think twice about eating healthy, it just happened.  That’s because this is a life style change and I feel like I made that transition.  So I feel like I am not afraid of what lies a head of me.  I am ready and willing to do the hard things so bring it on!

I can’t even tell you all of the ways that I have grown during the journey.  I am empowered, I have lots less fatigue, less pain, and walking away with so many positive new friends.  I will always be grateful for the opportunity of the program and the great friends that I have made.

Just remember, I am not done yet.  I have about 15-20 more pounds to drop.  Maybe a bit slower now, but they will leave my body for sure!

Thank you for following me during my unbelievable journey.  It has been amazing!

Last weigh in is April 19th!

Made a decision today that I am going for my next goal, I kind of stood back for a bit but I would rather work really hard right now while I am still with the group to lose some more weight than do it alone later.  Anyway you know me and goals!!! LOL Gotta make them!

So it is juicing and smoothies for me during the day and then regular dinner until April 19th.  Well I should say most of the time…still have some plans like Easter Brunch & Easter Dinner, can’t not eat those times now can I.

I may not hit the goal of 65 pounds by program end but you know what…I have already proven to myself I can do it! So I am going for it!!!!!!!  Wish me luck, I am gonna needs prayers & lots of prayers.

 

Down another pound!

Slow & steady…I will get there!

Forgot to post

Imagine that on a week that I gain 3.2 pounds I forget to post.  Think that was my subconscious? LOL  I expected the weight gain…just puts me a bit further away from my last goal for the program on April 19th.  Wow that came so quick!  No pressure I have already had success.

The big day!!!!

Well March 19th, 2012 came & I worked so hard to try to meet my goal.  This was the big day…the goal of 55 pounds by the time I turned 55 years old!  I set that goal 5 months & 5 days before my Birthday.  That was the goal that I used to start my blog with.  As always I have to do things with a flare…I weighed in on that day @ 4:15!  I missed my goal by almost 2.5 pounds.

So I missed it, that’s OK…I tried really hard & bottom line is I was extremely successful at loosing 53.5 pounds!  I was happy with that.    I missed the goal but I was not disappointed at all.  I had a great week…I juiced, drank lots of smoothies, didn’t eat much meat & went away & ate what I wanted & had lots of fun during the week.  I promised myself I would keep it fun & I did!

So after my early weigh in I went into the sauna & just plain relaxed & said a prayer thanking God that I had done so good!  I was proud.  Came out of the sauna, had to pee 3 times & now the official weight in was about to happen.  It didn’t matter to me because I knew I had too much to lose, as I said earlier, I missed my goal!

I stripped down to my sports bra & tiny shorts…nothing else on because I had promised myself I would be brave enough to do that.  When I got on that scale & DROPPED 3 MORE POUNDS BRINGING MY TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS TO 55.8 POUNDS!  Are you kidding me…I made my goal.  I dropped 3 pounds in 45 minutes!  UNBELIEVABLE!  Thank you Dear God!!!

That is unbelievable.  Made my goal on the exact day for the exact amount of weight…in the last 45 minutes!!!  Who could have thought that was possible…I’d say I experienced a bit of a miracle! So grateful!!!

 

OMG what a work out tonight!

Well I have to say the workout was brutal to night.  I think we ran at least 4 miles or more, climbed stairs & bridges, did jumping jacks, bridges, planks, sit ups, crunches, squats, lunges, sprints & and holy crap that was just in the 1st hour and a half.  OMG it was so tough.  The trainers really stepped it up. WOW!

I guess the only thing that makes it worth while is I came down on the scale again this week even after my cheat day today!  I may need to correct this number next week but if I remember right & who knows if I do after the brutal workout I think I may have lost 2 more pounds!!! Yippy…I am happy with that.  It so paid to take my head out of the game!

So that means I am down 49.6 pounds!  I may actually go over 50 pounds by next week if I behave on our little mini vacation to see the Celtic Women concert this week!  So in order to make my Birthday goal I need to loose 5.5 pounds in a week…LOL, stranger things have happened I guess!  We will see next week!  Wish me luck, I really need it at this point!  Maybe some really good prayers!

 

Finally!

So today was a great day…I lost 2 pounds this week bringing me down in the 170’s finally!!!!!!  Enough said!

Monday Results!

It’s a gain this week…1/2 pound.  Not sure how that happens when you work so hard at it but I have decided that I will not weigh in at home for a while.  I will see how that goes for now.  According to Bonnie @ Reiki…my head is stopping me from moving forward with the weight loss.  So I am trying something new…just not worrying about it.

I may or may not hit my next goal.  I may or may not hit my next goal after that…right now it doesn’t matter.  I will get there when I get there.  This journey is a life style change so what difference does it make.  I hope to be eating the same things a year from now.  So losing weight after the program ends will be alright too.  It is what it is and I can’t do much more than what I am already doing…that I know.

So I am taking the high road, the less stressful path & just not worrying about it for now.  Just for today!  Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to enjoy the adventure whatever it has in store for me!!

Monday again!

So I lost 1.2 pounds this week.  A bit disappointing but it is what it is.  I am working as hard as I ever have worked and the weight has definitely slowed down.  It has been a rough 5 or 6 weeks.  Not sure how to get out of my slump.  Any ideas??

My goal is getting a bit out of my reach…not completely just a bit.  Got to do 9 pounds in less than a month.  If my last month is an indicator…maybe have to fall short.  I even added an extra workout this week. Not sure if I can do more than that without risking wearing myself out.  We’ll see if I can handle more this week.

On another note found out last week that I am allergic to rice.  So after the confusion, acceptance & then anger… Confused about my body reacting to so many foods & it not showing up on the allergy test.  Acceptance in that it was only one really bad allergy & I would just stop eating it & then anger in the fact that rice is in so many foods.

I was getting rice in my granola, Subway subs, Fiber 1 snack bars…lots of stuff.  So maybe that’s what I need to get over my slump…new foods!  So now I am over those emotions & moving forward and choose new foods.  I can do this!

So tomorrow I begin my new meal plan.  I have lots more veggies and salads in my future.  New snacks…not nearly as good or filling but I will make it work for me!  And oh how I will miss my subs for lunch everyday…they gotta go too.

Everything happens for a reason…maybe the pain will leave my body too!  Oh forgot…the Dr. wants me to go organic as well.  I react way too much to food for it to be just rice as an issue.  The blood test is very precise…some foods that I have no allergy to makes my pain spike.  So working on organic as well…just gotta take it one step at a time.

So wish me luck on my next week…say some prayers that I lift this slump & the scale begins to love me again!  LOL

Almost at the 4 month mark!

Weight in was Ok, lost 2 pounds, bringing my total weight loss to 44.4.  That leaves me 10.6 pounds to lose by March 16th.  Wow I could have used those extra 3 days til I turn 55.

Realized I quit taking my iodine for my thyroid support, so I started that again today.  Maybe that will help push me a bit closer to my goal weight.  By the last months results it will be really close to meet my goal.

What’s important is I am feeling better with the meds adjusted & the rest will fall into place. MY energy is up & I can push myself a bit harder.

I just need the “I CAN DO THIS” attitude!!!!!!!  And I can do this!!

Update!

Just planned our trip to Manchester, NH for a few days in March to see The Celtic Women Concert.  It’s Phil’s favorite music.  The kids got us the tickets for Christmas and Nicole and her Craig gave us a gift certificate for a Bed & Breakfast for helping so much for their wedding.  Oh by the way, we are staying in a haunted house…LOVE IT!!!  Also have my restaurant.com gift certificate for a great meal while there.  Should be a inexpensive, fun vacation which I am looking forward to.  I planned everything last night with excitement.  Sometime in the night I woke up with a bit of fright.

I realized I have my Birthday goal of 55 pounds and we are leaving on March 16th, so I guess I had better have that goal met by then since eating out blows me right up with all that salt.  Weigh in when we get back will not be pretty.  So I really need to get right on that goal quicker …need to take off 12.6 more pounds before I get in that car.  OMG, I was scared of not meeting the 19th goal…now I have to do it my the 16th.  Deep breath, I can do this!  Especially with this good news…

I lost 30.5 inches!  WOW! The scale also seems to loves me again.

 

What a week!

Another week down & I am only down by .4 this week. Not really great but considering the week I had with all of the stress I guess I can’t complain.

In our group we always talk about making sure you have the right food around you.  Guess I was consumed in helping my sister law after the death of her husband, so I just didn’t get the right foods into my body.  The last night when the funeral was behind us we found the most amazing Italian restaurant.  Now that was great food & I can say I enjoyed every bite of it.

The bread dipped in balsamic & oil was amazing as was the pasta, I indulged in the bread with great pleasure – LOL.  I only ate half of the wheat pasta  and the french onion soup as well.

So I didn’t eat wicked bad but I just didn’t have the right foods available to me so not a successful week in the weight loss but successful in that I didn’t gain weight.  So got to hit it harder this week!

I am down 42.2 pounds.  I have 12.8 more to lose by March 19th, gotta step it up if I am gonna hit that goal.  And don’t be fooled by the slump lately…I will hit that goal!  Come along for the journey…it’s a good one!

3 1/2 months into it!

I am having a harder & harder time working out these days with my thyroid being so off.  My Dr. says my thyroid is 2 1/2 times over the maximum number it should be…off the charts!!!  No wonder I am struggling as badly as I am.  It will be corrected by cutting my meds in half by the weekend.  So enough whining & onto the great news!

My plateau has lifted & the Dr. Oz breakfast sundae has made this week the best weight loss yet.  I lost 5.6 pounds this week….I know, that’s great right?  Feels really good to be on my way again.  So I have officially lost a total of 41.8 pounds in the last 3 1/2 months!

That is unbelievable!  Now I have to lose 13.2 more by March 19th for my next goal.  Anyone think I will do it?  Time will tell…

So it’s official…it’s a gain!

I have hit a plateau!  I knew things weren’t moving right & the scale wasn’t going down.  So I gained 1.2 pounds this week.  But I think I have a good strategy so I am not upset.  It was bound to happen sooner or later, so rather than be upset I am being proactive.

Hopefully my plan works.  So here it is in a nut shell (ha ha, don’t even go there!!). This week I followed the diet for 4 days, I raised my carbs for 2 days & then I slammed my body with calories for 2 days.  Thus the weight gain!  LOL

The plan is to confuse my body!  I think my plateau hit because I wasn’t taking in enough calories for the workouts I have been doing.  I usually have between 1000 & 1200 calories per day!  Seemed enough for me.

So tomorrow I get back on track & see if I can move the weight forward again.  I know that the set back was temporary & not a big deal.  I am just happy that I had given myself permission to eat anything for the 2 days & I am not living on sugar now…don’t even really want any!  Mostly want healthy stuff, so that is growth & I choose to acknowledge the positive & let go of the negative.  It’s all good! Hope I kick that plateau’s butt soon!

Til next week…

Monday Weigh in & half way through my program with 3months to go!

So had another mini break down tonight, I get so mad at myself when it happens…like I can control it.  LOL It took a while for my body to stop trembling.  Once it did I just refused to push myself, I was unsure on how much I could push tonight since I hadn’t even done very much yet when the breakdown happened.  I think what was the hardest part was it happened pretty early in the workout.

Oh well, part of life until someone fixes me. LOL

So I lost 1.8  pounds this week.  I knew it was not going to be a record making week early on.  I tried hard but just wasn’t in the cards for me this week.  So now I have to work double as hard to make up for the small loss.  Gotta keep on top of those goals you know.  Isn’t that the point of setting a goal cuz it lights a fire under your ass to meet them.

So the fire is lit and I will continue to try harder next week.

Well it’s Monday nite again!

I rocked another week…lost 4.2 pounds this week, makes up for the wee gain last week!  So that puts me at a grand total of…drum roll please…35.2 pounds in less than 3 months.

So hopefully I won’t plateau cuz I am over 1/2 way to my goal for the program end (April 15th) of 65 pounds!  And only 20 pounds to go by my Birthday goal of 55 pounds by March 19th! I so got that goal under control!

This week is a great week…got lots of my clothes taken in, now I have clothes to wear!  Makes my life so much easier everyday.

It is still hard to believe how well I am doing.  I am beaming with pride!!!